#341

Sometimes people do look down on my father when I told them that he is a farmer. Well, yes indeed he is. But no one really knows that he can be better than that if his family had more moneys to school them. Or if he born later then any of his siblings.No one really knows that he can speak english fluently nor do maths very well. Who's fathers that read english newspaper or watching international news but just working as a farmer? My father is. Being a top student but fall back due to money problems. But I don't care cause whatever people think of him, he is still my father till the end. What my siblings and I am now is because of him who have going through all the harsh just to make sure that his children will not have the same fate as him.

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Orang selalu komen saya duduk senang lenang di bilik tidak buat apa-apa sepanjang praktikum ini. Muka pun cool ja macam tiada masalah. Kununla tiada masalah sama budak. Tapi orang tak tahu di kelas saya macam mana. Saya punya abm pun tidak juga bombastic very fantastic macam orang lain. Saya punya abm saya buat senyap-senyap sebab tak cantik macam orang lain punya. Kalau saya mengadu pun dengan orang bukan orang mau dengar. Paling-paling pun orang jawab balik: bukan hal saya. Itu masalah kamu.

Lol. Slap on my face.

Sekarang ni saya stress saya tidur. Lagi seronok. Ada juga orang cakap saya abaikan budak saya kerana terlalu fikirkan masalah saya. Haha. Kalau saya tak kisah, saya biarkan saja budak yang tak pandai tu terabai dalam kelas. Sambung kelas ja asal p&p berlangsung.Terfikir juga kadang-kadang : do you really know what am I thinking? Do you really know my problems? Or do you really know me? Don't assume just because I cried a lot it doesn't mean I cried for what-ever-relationship I have that is destined to be doom.

Haha. Satu lagi. Saya suka kacau kamu bukan sebab saya fall in love with you,  tapi sebab saya suka (in term of admiration) kamu. Btw, kalau betul pun saya suka (love) kamu saya takkan tunjukkan. Mungkin dingin dengan kamu, ya. Saya tak manja-manja dengan orang yang saya suka. Tapi bukan kacau kamu.